The Biology of the Changing Seasons

The sun is out white hot and bright today; the sky near perfectly flawlessly clear and brilliant blue. It’s a sharp contrast to the freezing temperatures, gray overcast skies and constant onslaught of snow we’ve been experiencing for almost a week in the Northeast. But one would do well not to be fooled by this recent change in the weather, for though the skies are clear and blue and the sun is shining bright, the temperature today is a biting 21° and according to weather forecasters will not rise above 25. It’s the kind of cold that hurts your skin if you’re exposed to it for any longer than a few minutes. At first it’s pin pricks. Then a numbing swelling-like pain. And if there is ever a pickup in the wind, forget about it — t’s a physically brutal and near unbearable condition to spend any considerable amount of time in.

But unlike most, who seem to get as much of a kick out of complaining about cold weather as they do sunbathing on a sunny day in June, I have loved every minute of this Winter’s snow and freezing temperatures. For me there is something very appealing about this cold weather, considering that it’s perfectly normal for winter — I don’t see how we have a right to complain about it, let alone dislike it — as if we were somehow entitled to warmer temperatures just because we are used to getting everything we want. I find the cold and snow quite enjoyable, desirable even; comforting in a paradoxically warm and cozy way.

Clearly this attitude does not apply to everyone; some people blatantly profess out loud to dislike the cold and snowy weather of winter. (It makes one wonder why then do they choose to live in a seasonally volatile locale like New York City if they’re going to complain about it every year…) Plenty of people for generations have moved from the Midwest and the Northeast down south to warmer climates specifically for this reason. My family in fact were diehard self professed “yankees” from New York and Pennsylvania and yet because, as all people do once retired, my grandparents moved to South Florida, I was obligated to grow up there.

From the day I was born I can always remember disliking Florida; feeling like a fish out of water, an outlier. There was nothing about it except the beach that I liked or felt connected to in the least. Some people feel right at home where they grow up. It is after all for all intents and purposes “home”. But I never felt at home growing up. Rather I felt like an alien who was forced to make a pit stop in a strange and foreign and hostile land. Like an outsider. As if I were the only one, all alone in seeing how terribly wrong and ass backwards it was there. From the climate to the people it just didn’t feel right down there. I didn’t fit and everyone knew it. There are few things as upsetting to the psyche of a young mind than never feeling like you fit in somewhere when everyone around you is acting as if everything is perfectly fine.

In elementary school during what we were told was “winter” we were instructed to draw snowflakes or snowmen, as all kids are in the States. But we’d never even seen snow let alone built a snowman. During the Fall we were always asked to draw all these different colored leaves of orange and yellow and red to decorate the room — yet we’d never experienced the changing colors of Autumn. Our teachers attempted to explain to us what autumn was…or why they called it “Fall”. But the explanations fell on deaf ears. All around us were green trees 365 days out of the year. There is no Autumn in Florida. Just as there is no winter and no spring. So these were ideas that only became real to us through the movies or TV. Talk about feeling like you’re missing out…. Gloves mittens scarves winter coats galoshes hats long-johns snowmen snowball fights skiing hot cocoa warm cozy fireplaces…these were all things that seemed entirely foreign to us as children growing up in a temperate climate that never had seasons. It felt as if a very large part of growing up, of being a human on planet earth, was being withheld from us, a large piece of the collective pie of civilization was totally off limits to our experience. These were things we couldn’t even relate to, let alone know anything about. It set up a real “us and them” paradigm in our young minds to be sure. We never had White Christmases. In fact we didn’t even understand most Of the lyrics of those classic Christmas songs. Sleigh bells in the snow? What? The idea that people would deliberately ever desire to move down to Florida or the South for that matter seemed a ridiculous notion. Why on earth would anyone want to do that and give up all that fun stuff associated with the seasons that we saw on TV and in the movies?

The first time I ever felt “at home” in the world was my first visit to New York. It was a palpable change in feeling, change of state inside of me. A brand new sense of calm, ease and letting go. A great big physical and psychological sigh of relief. The first time I ever felt relaxed and not on guard in my entire life. As soon as I got into my first taxi I just immediately felt different, transformed, happy, grounded — as if some invisible force was whispering into my ear “you are home…” I experienced the same thing in Vermont, Chicago, Wisconsin (and of course later in Italy, but that’s another story…). Anywhere that had seasons really. I began to understand that home had very little to do with where we are born or raised or where our family resides, but instead it goes much deeper than that. It’s more of a feel thing, up to each individual and how the environment affects their mind and body.

I don’t pretend to believe that this sudden transformation was due entirely to the weather. I am sure that culture and people also contribute to it as well. But for now, here, I am specifically focusing on the weather, especially as it relates to the changing of the seasons.

For me, someone who was raised primarily in the south, I find the cold weather of winter extremely comforting and grounding. It’s as if the cold winter weather is somehow attached to our very souls from some primordial source the dates back hundreds of thousands of years. A biological connection to the changing seasons perhaps through thousands of lifetimes of different incarnations on earth; or perhaps an even deeper more primitive genetic predisposition to the seasons based on the fact that nearly every atom in our body is comprised of the same stuff as planet earth is. We share the same molecular heritage and thus anything the earth is accustomed to so too are we.

I have concluded over many years living in the north now as compared to living in the south that there has to be some sort of biological reason for this almost supernatural attachment human beings have to the changing of the seasons. It is as if by our very nature, being biological organisms, that we are as attached and attracted to the cold of winter and the blossoming of spring and the luxurious warmth and heat of the summer as the earth is.

Now of course this might not be the case at all; it might be more of a purely subjective preferential cause-and-effect matter. Some people like cold-weather, and some people don’t. But I cannot speak for others. I can only speak for myself. And for me I have always found the cold weather and snow of winter as appealing as I do the warm weather and hot son of a day at the beach during summertime. Truth be told I cannot readily relate to those who desire to live in climates that do not regularly change seasons. Such was the case in Florida where if it dips below 70 people go crazy and throw on three or four layers of winter clothing because they’re so unaccustomed to cold weather. Not only are they not accustomed to it, they are overtly against it and claim to dislike it. This attitude against what can only be considered one of the most natural aspects of earthly living possible has always struck me as being very odd. But again it is after all a seemingly subjective thing.

Why is it that some of us prefer our winters to be cold and our Summers to be hot? Why do some of us prefer the changing of the seasons so much more than others? Some people don’t seem to have a preference at all whether the season changes in their environment, not even a little bit. This mentality I do not understand. I believe there is a divine purpose to the elegant and subtle changing of earth’s seasons. Something that not only greatly benefits the earth and all of its various species and inhabitants but also a profound yet subtle benefit to the heart and soul of humankind.

Seasons are landmarks, rights of passage, outposts in the desert of existence that help map our journey through life, each as important as the other. Just as one ends, always perfectly at the right time, and another begins, so too does our state of mind. There is something very unnatural about living in an environment that never changes seasons. The human heart and body are deprived of something powerful, perhaps even essential, which is why you’ll never hear me complain about the cold and snow, nor the heat and sun. They all have their rightful place. Just as we do. Many people are aware of Florida’s reputation for extreme corruption. Law enforcement calls it the “fraud capital of the United States”. Perhaps the unnatural never changing constantly hot weather plays a role in this strange anomaly that gives Florida it’s duplicitous reputation… I don’t know. But I do know that it doesn’t FEEL right. One only need spend one year in a locale that has four distinct seasons and they will feel forever changed for the better, recharged and refreshed equally from each though in a different way.

Right now we are enjoying Winter, in all of its glory, from temperatures below 0 to piles and piles of snow decorating the city in a luxurious soft white, to the slower pace brought about by the limitations of such frigid temperatures. And yet at the same time there also seems to be a cheery spark in everyone’s eyes as well. I couldn’t imagine spending January February or March in 80 degree weather as they do in California or Florida. It just wouldn’t be natural. In time Spring will arrive. The big coats and floppy hats will come off. Sun dresses and flip flops will start popping up everywhere and eventually be as ubiquitous as the bursting colors of fresh cherry blossoms and other floral delights. How else would we know this spring if not for this Winter? We wouldn’t. And that’s the point of it all.

– Posted by The Ambassador using BlogPress on an iPhone 8s Custom

– Posted by The Ambassador using BlogPress on an iPhone

An American Arab Spring — The New American Revolution

Yes… we can go on and on posting what’s wrong with America in the 21st century on various social media as we do till we’re blue in the face. But who are we reaching? Others just like us. And since we already know all this and we can’t help but constantly remind each other of these same issues day after day, what good is it actually doing? Nada. Sharing what this corrupt senator or that corrupt White House did yesterday or last month or what they plan to do in the future is old hat. It’s boring. And more importantly it’s not getting us anywhere. It’s a tired charade because we’re frightened of what we really need to do. The real post that we should be sharing by now is WHAT the SOLUTION is. And what is the PLAN? How are we going to stop it all? From the inside it appears that we have generally four options:

1. We can say “fuck it”… since we already know how it works just join the system and profit from it and then use that money to bring the bastards down or at least cause major some pain. (Incorporate yourself. It’s cheap and easy. Pay no taxes just as corporations are want to do. Then invest in the same “assets” that we’re supposedly so upset about being sold off to “the others”. Become the “others”. Then use that money to fuck with them through lobbying and campaign financing away their criminal systems. (As an example I made a 400% I shit you not profit last week alone from investing in Nat Gas, which I intend to use a small portion of to donate to Josh Fox so he can keep making his excellent Anti-fracking films.)) This is but one example. Stop complaining about the rich. It’s annoying for one. And you wouldn’t be so eager to if you were one of them. Become one and fight the aspects of the system that you don’t like from the inside. It’s much more enjoyable than staying poor and complaining. Money is the only tool or weapon that has any authority left on planet earth; at least when speaking of government — especially American government.

2. Fight for the truth to get out and slowly re-indoctrinate / wake up the masses who are allowing these hideous manipulations to persist — wake them up in order to slowly change things in the methodical legal democratic manner that is still (at present at least) our right. And our obligation. But… how long will that take? Let’s face it, the majority of the country is still completely in the dark. They believe that 9/11 was carried out by Osama Bib Laden and a rogue band of AL Quaeda “terrorists”. And that’s if we’re lucky. Some of them still believe that Saddam Hussein was responsible for it. Many of us have friends who actually went to Iraq to kill people because of it. Our friends in the military. It wasn’t their fault that they didn’t know what was really going on. The country was panicked at the time. They were impassioned. And they naeively believed their president and his henchman in the government. They considered themselves patriots. They knew no better. Many of them have reconsidered that mistake. But not all of them.

If we use the timeline of the past as our gauge and add the element of exponential growth that seems inherent in the evolution of human thought to their rate of awakening…how long will this transformation take? Yes it seems lost at this point. BUT the people are slowly winning in certain arenas… Which should definitely give us hope. Legal cannabis and same sex marriage and the recent raising of the minimum wage in several major cities are all good examples; so too are Vermont and New York’s ban on fracking good recent examples.But let’s face facts: this option is the LONG road. At the rate we’re going now, we will NEVER see true justice, truth or honesty, integrity or freedom in our lifetimes in the United States. It only gets worse from here. Regardless of the small strides we appear to be making here and there, they are making much more progress in the opposite direction.

[We must also remember that we’ve got a long road ahead of us in terms of just correcting the sins of our past. They are too numerous to mention in any one article. But just as a “for instance”, the American government, or the parties currently in power posing as such, better put, have spent over one trillion dollars on the so-called war on drugs, and have imprisoned thirty seven million American citizens for non-violent drug related “crimes”. Most of them black or Latino, all of them poor. And all facilitated by a for-profit government and industry that makes money from arresting the least among us and keeping them in these prisons for as long as they can. Contrast this with the fact that none of the individuals responsible for the Great Recession of 2008 served any time in jail or prison. This is a shocking statistic. And not something we can miraculously erase from our tainted history. Nope. The best we can do is stop the madness and perhaps idealistically even start freeing all those imprisoned for non-violent drug related crimes and if necessary create more programs to rehabilitate them. Rather than keeping them locked up in a cage like animals or criminals. And this is just one of thousands of treacherous treasons that have been committed in our name in broad daylight right before our eyes.]

3. Say fuck it again but in an entirely different manner and just ditch out of the system. Leave the grid as they say. Attempt to get out of the system completely — if that’s even possible at this point. Become as bad as we perceive “they” are. Not in joining them as in #1. But in fighting against them. In other words just go total anarchistic on their asses. Hack their networks. Bring down their machines. Whole companies. Especially government ones. Vandalize and blow up their buildings, and hell while we’re at it go vigilante on the worst of them–the truly wicked, the obviously wretched, the liars the crooks the killers– take them out of the picture entirely. For every drone strike on an innocent civilian village we take out one or more of them. But all covertly. Anonymous meets Anarchist Cookbook meets Fight Club meets Weather Underground. This option may have moral implications that may seem objectionable to some. Break glass only the case of an emergency. (Though at the time of this writing many who understand what we are facing have already begun this option… Some may choose to join them.)

 

4. We mobilize as many as there are who are truly ready on a national level and we start a new Continental Congress and Army for a full on no-holds barred revolt to take the country back. Then we totally reboot the system. From scratch. Let’s face it. For as noble as the so-called founding father’s ideals were, the system failed. Somewhere down the line, it got sold out to the almighty dollar and succumbed to the power that absolutely corrupts. So we erase it all and start over. One day the world awakens to an Arab Styled Spring in the United States of America. We make a formal announcement to the current government-select that they are to immediately resign or be arrested for treason and we march forward and try to do it peaceably; if that doesn’t work then we use force, just as we did in the first Revolutionary War. It’s not like we don’t know HOW. It’s been happening all over the world around us for a few years now. The trick is that with all our talk, we’re all well too aware of that little secret that gnaws away at us in the dark of night: an Arab Spring may have worked in Tunisia or Egypt or Libya. But there’s no way in hell it would ever work in the United States. THIS is why we the people who know just how bad things have gotten continue to share the corruption and treachory with one another on social media or in small random occasional demonstrations and marches, but don’t take any real actions. FEAR. And for good reason.

The American government is too powerful militarily we tell ourselves, and too wealthy (a strange irony considering it’s broke and in debt for trillions of dollars. (See that’s the thing… If WE don’t do this, it’s only a matter of time before another more powerful country who has it more put together than the United States and who is owed trillions of dollars does it TO us. And in that case WE the People will have NO say in what happens to us.)) What’s more, we assume, the American government is just too far gone, too wicked and too corrupt to respect the demands of it’s people. They’d kill us all. And they’d arrest whoever was left. The only way a President Barack Obama or any future president or any other government official for that matter is ever going to step down is if they are forced out by the people. Forcibly. In their minds, regardless of what they do, bad or horrible, wicked or illegal, they’re not going anywhere. No matter what The People want.

Another obstacle that truly stands in our way is that to some who consider themselves patriotic this kind of talk seems treasonous. They believe in America still. They believe in the two-party system and the three branches of the government system. They understand that in the first American Revolution we were fighting for our freedom from a foreign nation, Great Britain, but in this case we would be fighting our own government. A government we have been indoctrinated to believe and believe in since the day we were born. What they don’t seem to realize is that that America is long gone. Those branches of government are long gone. The United States that we live in today is completely controlled by powerful big money, multi-national corporations that hold no allegiance to the United States of America. The so-called government officials who supposedly work for us haven’t worked for us for decades. They are slaves to these large nearly invisible corporations that answer to no one. To revolt against them is not only the right thing to do, to take the country back, but it’s our moral responsibility as patriotic Americans.

With this option we the people will obviously lose. As we saw during the Boston Bombing charade this current crop of impostors has no problem instituting marshal law and firing upon anyone who gets in their way, including it’s own citizens. We will all die and be branded “traitors and terrorists” in the short term history books. BUT…  this first revolt will inspire a whole new wave of The People — a much larger one — to rise up to do it again. And THEY just might win. If they don’t. another one will rise up yet again, and they will be an even larger group. Eventually The People will become so large — just as they did in countries all over the Middle East during the Arab Spring — that our winning will become inevitable.

These are our choices. Which one are we currently choosing…? NONE OF THE ABOVE. Right now, most people tell themselves that we’re working on option #2… But are we really? And if we are, how’s that working out for us? How long until we resort to 3 and then 4…? What will it take? In fact that’s an interesting question to ponder: What did it take for Chechnya, Tunisia, Egypt, Libya, Syria, Crimea, etc to revolt? What HAD to happen?

And secondly, what is the primary key or factor that determines whether The People WIN or LOSE? It’s certainly not “more fire power”. These nations who effectively rid themselves of corrupt ruling governments just as we now need to do had very little fire power for the most part. It appears to be “a united majority” — of citizens who refuse to shut up or go home regardless of what the government does to them or tells them to do.  So there’s some good fodder for middle of the night contemplation as we begin to plan. Solution. That’s what we need now. Not more sharing of what’s wrong. See you on the battlefield.

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Making a Fortune Destroying the World


When I’m not making music or out trying to save the world I’m neck deep into studying the world of investing, finance and economics. Perhaps it’s an age thing. Many are the storied legends of Mick Jagger who spent the first half of his life in the fast lane of sex drugs and rock’n’roll only to transform into a proper English gentleman, knighthood and all, who was just as comfortable sipping tea on his private jet reading The Economist and other finance publications as he used to be onstage. I remember reading these articles about him as a kid and as weird and incongruent as it sounded it still appealed to me, made me think “Hhhmmm…. that seems like a cool way to go… Live life wild crazy and free when you’re young and then transition into an aristocratic Bruce Wayne type of character when you get older.” I logged the memory of the article I read and those thoughts and continued about my life in fast lane for years.

It didn’t take long for the entrepreneurial bug to grab a hold of me. Since that aspect of my life is already well known and written about, as well as not the specific impetus for this particular post, the only thing I’ll add here is that yes I did start my first company when I was 20 (a rehearsal and recording studio facility) and proceeded to transition into a variety of different industries as an entrepreneur and businessman simultaneously throughout my career as a recording artist. Once entrepreneurism gets you, it’s hard to shake it. I still own 3 corporations and have been developing several more new ones this year. Besides the fact that being in business helps bring in an unlimited and more than usual amount of money — which is essential if you want to make music for a living in this day and age (there’s just no money in it anymore), it also feels good to be able to provide jobs to people. That’s one of the aspects of being in business that I like the most. That and the freedom of not having to punch a clock everyday for someone else’s financial gain.

For the last two years, yes two years — i know how insane that sounds — we’ve been working on these two new Ed Hale albums. Same crew. Me and the guys in Transcendence and various other friends and cohorts. What started out as a relatively simple idea, let’s hurry up and get the follow-up to Ballad On Third Avenue and All Your Heroes Become Villains out while we’re hot, as usual turned into a big long laborious and expensive adventure. We shouldn’t even be surprised anymore I suppose. I’ve been doing this for decades now. We start an album and before we know it my mind gets so filled with ideas and concepts and ambitions to innovate that it ends up taking years. The guys hate it. I hate it. Don’t ask why I do it. Can’t help myself really.

These two new ones are no exception. Just the fact that it started out as ONE new album and quickly morphed into 34 songs split up between two albums speaks volumes about what the other guys in the band have to deal with. But if you’re a freind or fan and are feeling more than tired of waiting, I promise you it’ll be worth it. It’s not like we’re doing anything revolutionary or totally out of this world like with All Your Heroes… But we are aiming high and trying a lot of new things we’ve never done before. That’s what’s taking so long. We’ve never created an album with this many musicians on it before. Nor with this kind of build-up and anticipation. Both are contributing to the extended amount of time being invested in the project.

Since the albums have been taking so long, I started to dive into actively learning about investing and finance again. Hardcore. Yes, while it’s true that I began trading fifteen years ago, it was primarily as a hobby. I was a kid. It was fun and games. I had a lot of money to burn. I won some and lost some. I didn’t realize how much there was to learn… I just rode the coat tails of various bull markets. Learned as much as I could and then being a recording artist and general ambassador took over. It became impossible to find any free time to invest in anything but me. Besides the fact that in 2007 we hit this major economic collapse, what is now called “the Great Recession”, and so investing of any kind really lost it’s appeal for me.

Earlier this year that changed. I’m not sure what it was exactly. Precious Metals had always appealed to me. Bought my first 10 ounce bar of silver for $40. They’re now worth $200. And my first 1 ounce gold coin for $345. Those are now worth $1200. That’s incredible to contemplate. Earlier this year a buddy who knew that I used to love precious metals (Zeke Zaskin in fact) informed me how high they had risen over the last few years. So I jumped into investing in them again. First buying them physically. Bullion, bars and coins. And then exploring more advanced techniques for investing in them. ETFs, ETNs, leveraged plays, inverse plays. It’s all gotten quite advanced. Much more so than one could ever imagine from the outside. That got me back into the investing game full time. Pretty soon I was investing in other things, anything and everything. Whatever made money.

And therein we begin to explore the real point of this post. For about six months now I have been actively and passionately waking up at 4:30am everyday to participate in very active investing. This is the reason why it seems as though I “disappeared”. Because I did for all intents and purposes. But I’m still here. I’ve just been buried in this other world. And when I’m not doing this, I’m running our other companies or in the recording studio trying to finish the albums. Now you know.

With finance and economics there’s a big learning curve to it all. I spend about 50% of my time studying and learning and the other 50% behind a computer hardcore investing. Buying, selling, trading, hedging. It’s an insane world to thrust one’s self into. In all honesty I can say unequivocally that I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone. There’s got to be better things one can do with their life and time. I’ve just become slightly obsessed with it for various reasons. There’s the money making aspect to it sure. That can’t be denied. But then there’s also something else there, something more powerful and profound. The learning.

See, when we’re out there in the regular world, living our day to day lives on Main Street, going about our business, we normally have no idea what the mechanics are behind the world that we live in. We may try to keep up with the latest news from the radio or TV or water cooler or online media… But it’s rare that we learn the actual “WHY” behind what goes on in the world. Things just are. And we adjust accordingly. Sure pundits try to break things down after the fact. But we never get a peek behind the curtain to see what the primal force underlying the initial development of most events is. Instead we attempt to assess and integrate the incoming data and then act based on it and what we’re told. What I have slowly begun to see from diving so deeply into the world of finance and investing is that nearly everything that touches our world, everything that shapes it, has it’s start in the world of economics and finance. Investing. Money making.

It’s a fascinating game. In our world, meaning YOU and ME — people like us, we take it for granted that burning coal is bad for the planet, or that fossil fuels like oil and fracking are bad for the environment and eroding the atmosphere and poisoning our water supply. But what we almost never think about or hear about — especially not on a level that we can relate to — is how much money is being made from these activities. Not just for rich old cigar chomping white men, but for pretty much everyone. We’re talking about trillions of dollars. Governments are completely indebted to certain entities. Hell, governments are nothing but organized systems of employees who work for large multi-national corporations comprised of a select group of very wealthy individuals who pretty much control everything. The money obtained through taxing a country’s citizens is nothing compared to the money needed to really run a thriving economy, or at least appear as if you’re running a thriving economy.

The United States for instance is completely indebted to this very private corporation made up of various European banking cartels called “The Federal Reserve” — there’s nothing “federal” about them; they’re not a part of the American government — who at the moment are loaning our banks and government 85 billion dollars a month. $85,000,000,000. BILLION. Per month. It’s a figure so staggeringly large that it’s beyond our comprehension. Without this money, our economy would have collapsed long ago. In return our government does whatever this private entity tells it to. So too do our banks. We as citizens are indebted to our government — as in we do what they say when they say it as they instruct us to or we risk being arrested and having our rights taken away and/or being thrown in prison etc. As well we are indebted to the banks of the world. It’s’ how we finance our lives. It’s how we buy our cars, pay for college, buy our homes, pay for our health care, etc. It’s all one big system wrapped in on itself.

Yes everyone needs everyone else to survive — and I elaborate on the potentially beneficial implications of this a lot more in the We Are the Revolution book I have been working on for the last few years that explores the Personal Expression Age, but for the most part just because WE are an integral part of this large system does NOT imply that we have any say or control in it, nor in how it is run. Because for the most part we don’t. [Here I am speaking specifically about physical action that could affect change or results as opposed to actions in consciousness, which is another matter entirely.]

Now that’s the bigger picture. The classic “wealthiest one percent control the world made up of the other 99%” viewpoint. It’s a well-run, well-known and fully explored and taken for granted viewpoint. Always has been since humanity first appeared on earth and started making note of it. That’s the background of our day to day lives. And from what I can tell from all this research and work I’ve done for the last six months into economics and finance, things haven’t shifted at all away from this direction. If anything they’ve become more linearly constricted and compacted, i.e. the 1% have and control even more and the 99% have and control even less, making them more dependent on the 1%.

But that isn’t new, and it isn’t the main crux of this post or what I’ve discovered. What’s more interesting if we zoom in a bit is just how totally controlled the world we live in is by finance. We can call it economics. Most do. But i believe that’s a misleading label. A misnomer. Because since time began we could all say that “the world we live in is largely controlled by economics” and who’s going to argue with that? It’s a given. But it’s not really economics per se as much as it is the world of finance and investing, ie making money. That’s really what’s pulling the strings. That’s what fuels economics, or “the economy”. Like this: economics may seem to control the world we live in, but in actuality it is more a result of and an indicator of what is happening in the world of finance and investing. There’s a difference.

The reason we won’t stop fracking until half the wildlife and water of the United States is destroyed and most everyone we know is dead or dying from unnatural causes is because there is HUGE money being made from natural gas. It’s the same reason why China and India won’t stop burning coal even though they’ve been warned for decades about it’s harmful effects. Just to be clear, the United States still has at least thirty-something percent of it’s electricity being powered from coal as well. So we’re no angels. twenty-something percent is from natural gas. The rest from oil. A very small part is from solar. A very very small part. Solar hasn’t turned into a cash cow yet for anyone. Therefore it will never see the kind of love that oil or coal or natural gas has through the years.

What it really all comes down to is where the money is. You and I don’t have the money to invest in a large energy exploration company or a mining company. No Main Streeter does. So we leave that kind of thing to the big dogs who do. What we commonly call Wall Street. (it’s really industry itself, industrialists; but Wall Street is it’s vehicle so to speak… Wall Street is how industry gets its investment capital.) They’ve got systems in place already that make them a ton of money, these industrialists. God love ’em. Whether it’s oil or gas or coal or iron ore or steel or even uranium or platinum. In the last six months I’ve invested in things I didn’t even know existed a few months ago. It’s a big world out there. Much larger and more entangled than we can ever imagine. And I cannot think of a better arena to learn about it than the finance and investing world. These industries are where the HUGE money is. Without these things we don’t have a “civilized world” to live in. At least not from our current viewpoint or past reference points.

Thus even we take these things for granted. Take a look around you. The giant industrial machine that surrounds us is astounding when you stop and look at it. What’s more fascinating is that every single one of these things that we see use touch smell operate work in and live in is created by someone, usually “someone else”, by a company. A company made up of others. A company made up of others who are making money from creating these things. Whether it’s our car or our house or our heating and air conditioning or our electricity or our roads… on and on… They’re all businesses, i.e. mechanisms for making money for someone. If they didn’t make money from doing it, they wouldn’t do it. And in return we wouldn’t have these things that we’ve become so used to and take for granted.

We’ve all heard of that movie from a few years ago “Who Killed The Electric Car”; it does an excellent job of explaining how the electric car was an idea whose time had come two decades ago — the technology had arrived — but the big oil companies literally stopped it in its tracks because it threatened their money generating ability. That’s an astounding thing when you stop and think about it. Truly astounding, that kind of power. But that’s the point of all this. There is no end to what kind of effect, no matter how bad wrong unjust or harmful, a powerful industry (collection of “other people”) can create in the world we live in if they want to because they feel that they’re money making potential is being threatened. THAT is the real crux of this.

It’s why so-called big pharma releases drugs they know may not be that safe for human consumption. And why large countries invade smaller ones. It’s why the United States claims to be fighting for freedom and liberty and yet supports the largest communist country in the world (China) and the largest dictatorship (Saudi-controlled Arabia). When we wonder why bad things happen in the world, what we’re really doing is pretending we don’t already know that at the heart of all things is the quest to make money.

In the last six months I have had two primary goals in the realm of what we have been discussing: to make money and to learn as much as I can about investing, economics and finance as possible. At times I have found it amazingly easy to make money. I have seen how powerful a small change in price of just a few cents can make if you’re leveraging a large amount of money in an equity. You can make a fortune with just a small move of twenty cents. You can also just as easily lose it. But more than that, what I’ve discovered that is far more profound is the need to make money and for that money to make money and how in the world of investing all morals values ethics and scruples stay home with the dogs and kids. They just don’t enter the picture. Not even a little bit.

All the big money in the world seeks a place to rest safely (protect itself) AND a place where it can generate MORE money. That’s it’s job. So it travels the world looking for new places to rest or do its job. This money, where it lands and what it does while there, is what not only feeds the world around us but builds and creates it. We’ll never get rid of war or weapons of war as long as building and using weapons of war remains such a profitable business. And that’s just another example. The same can be said for just about anything else around us good or bad.

One of the things that people ask me the most is “Don’t people realize that if they destroy the whole world just to make money that they too won’t have a world to live in and neither will their children?” I believe the answer to that question is that the big money already has that taken care of. I think we’d be fooling ourselves if we didn’t assume that they’ve already got contingency plans in place for those scenarios and they’ve got the money to implement them. I cannot help but be reminded of the underground living places and tunnels that connect them that have already been built all over (or under) the U.S. for our president and other “important people”. That’s enough to make you go postal, thinking about that. And also a recent movie entitled Elysium where all the wealthy people live on a space station a few thousand miles away from earth while all the middle class people live on a desolate polluted and over-populated earth. It’s a ghastly dystopian vision of the future. One which I hope we never have a chance to see. But it is a viable vision of the future we are currently creating if we continue on the path we are on.

There are innumerable ramifications to all of this. I believe we are only at the beginning of our learning. At least for me anyway. I was able to only touch upon a few aspects of it here. Just wanted to touch base. Much more later.

 

Fracking Means We’re Fucked

Stop fracking!

It’s well past midnight. But I can’t sleep. I heard about Josh Fox’s documentary on hydrolic fracturing, better known as fracking, from Bill Maher. (Say what one will about the ever vigilant pornography loving, womanizing, pot smoking, religious hating, ultra-liberal, potty-mouthed late night talk show host, but the man is smart, funny and one of only a handful of people in the American entertainment industry intelligent enough to not be willing to sell out and at the same time stay committed to somehow making valuable issues topical in our modern highly degraded and degenerate society. Leno, Fallon, Kimmel, and the rest of them, even Letterman unfortunately, only add to the collective garbage that spews forth into America’s polluted mass consciousness with their focus on meaningless celebrity, pranks, and the usual irrelevant non-news bites of the day.

I’ve been watching the documentary entitled GASLAND based on Maher’s recommendation for the last hour and half. It is late and I am tired.

[Editor’s Note: Over the last few weeks I have started to get a substantial intuitive feeling that it is no longer enough to simply post and share on the social networks such as Facebook and Twitter that we all know and love and depend on for the latest and greatest. It came first as an intuitive hit, sometimes I call them voices, or visions; no words or even thoughts that can be translated into words except very basic generalities… something to the effect of “I wonder if posting to social media rather than the more traditional blog is actually hurting the cause more than helping…. then more as thought-clouds… frequent thought bubbles would appear in my brain about the subject. How many people actually see a post? What if it’s an important post? Something that everyone should be aware of? How many other posts and status updates is that one post competing with? And worst of all, hashtags and all, it’s still damn hard to FIND information on social media without a lot of work, and impossible to bookmark or save it. So sure putting something up on Facebook or Twitter or Tumblr gets it out there “fast” and it sure is easy for us… but how many people does it actually reach? Even when you have a fanbase in the tens of thousands or millions…? Furthermore, once a post is a few days old, it tends to hit the proverbial bottom of the barrel, seems no longer relevant; hell, it’s no longer even visible to most people except for the real hardcore deep diggers and bottom dwellers. But how many of us are like that these days in this age of too much information..? No, posting to social media may have temporarily seemed like the quick fix we all wanted so we wouldn’t have to keep posting to our blogs and all the upkeep cost and maintenance necessary to keep them, but it just isn’t going to work in the long run for hardcore lifetime information providers or artists and content creators. So we’re back to blogging now, pretty much everything minus only the most mundane items, with auto-feeds going into Facebook, Twitter and Tumblr to alert non-subscribers. Hell, this should be a blog post on its own. But fuck it, if you’re reading this, now you know. Heed it. It’s only get worse. If your message is important, get it back into a blog format. Don’t just rely on social media. It’s just too damned overloaded.] End of Editor’s Note

In 2005 Bush/Cheney passed their Energy Act, a law that allows all oil and natural gas companies (using Haliburton technology, Cheney the former CEO) drilling for oil and natural gas in the US to be exempt from all the previous 1970’s laws that protected our air, water, environment and even our drinking water. This was illegal for thirty years prior to their passing of this ludicrous and criminal law. It made anyone drilling for oil or natural gas in America to NOT have to be bound by or abide by the Clean Drinking Water Act, the Natural Water act and the Clean Air act. In other words, they can do whatever they want to the air or water in the US when fracking or drilling and not be regulated, or fined or even scientifically researched. “WTF???” you might ask. Yeah, me too. When I first heard it I thought maybe I was having a flashback and kept rubbing my eyes… surely I misheard that. So I rewound and watched and listened again. Nope. Got it right the first time. feeling irritated. But it only gets worse.

       There are 596 chemicals — the majority of which are poison to the air, water and the environment — that are used in #fracking fluid that is pumped underground in over 450,000 wells in 30 states across the United States currently. This is happening NOW. #Mindblowing. Colorado, Texas, Kansas, Wyoming, Pensyvania, Louisiana, on and on. And it’s only getting worse. This documentary was made in 2010 for God’s sake. God only knows how much worse it’s gotten since this was made. One of the most devastating aspects of the whole situation is that one of Dick Cheney’s many milestone achievements while he was in the White House, along with covert spying, torture, and mass killings in the Middle East, was convincing the powers that be to allow oil and natural gas drilling on PUBLIC LANDS. All those millions of acres that Teddy Roosevelt preserved in the United States to save generations to come — land that belongs to every legal U.S. citizen — are now now being destroyed from fracking.

I don’t want to go into a lot of the details here. That’s one of the benefits of his new age. There’s no need. Suffice it to say: GO FIND A WAY TO WATCH FILM CALLED GASLAND. Do it today. Make your whole family watch it. That spouse of yours, the one who’s all “I’m not into that kind of stuff” — male or female, make them watch it anyway. Force them if you have to. It’s that important.

The truth is that this isn’t even a debatable issue anymore. It’s not something that needs more research or exploration. It’s more like already a freaking disaster that’s already happened. Even in large cities like Dallas / Ft. Worth — one of the worst places hit by it, some parts now deserted, people all sick and dying. It’s beyond discussing or debating. It’s already a public health and environmental disaster. I’m more than irritated. I’m sad but more than sad. I’m angry but more than angry. Can’t really describe what I’m feeling yet. Overwhelmed maybe. Over it. Like “it’s time to seriously consider where we are going to move now and start planning on when” over it. America is fucked if this continues.

You’ll have to see the film for yourself and then start studying it. Study the numbers up above. Consider that all this natural shale that is underneath half the United States that they are drilling into or want to is surrounded by lakes and rivers and streams. We are talking about doing something here that cannot be undone. A catastrophe so mammoth that we may destroy half or more of one of the most beautiful countries on planet earth. And ruin it’s natural water supply. Basically the best way to look at it is this: for those who live in any of these states where fracking is already taking place, they’re screwed. They’ll get sick and the survivors will soon realize that they have to move. Big cities will get bigger. Smaller cities will turn into big cities. And that’s really just the beginning. There is no governmental oversight on any of this because of Cheney making it all exempt from any kind of oversight, so as one of the higher-ups at the EPA said “We need to be investigating this and we know it. But we need to be directed to investigate it first. And so far we have not been directed to investigate it. No matter how many nightmare stories we hear of people getting sick or being able to light their tap water on fire etc… We are presently being told that it is out of our jurisdiction.”

Funny. So if protecting clean air, drinking water, and the environment that is being poisoned all over the United States is out of the jurisdiction of the EPA, then who’s jurisdiction is it in exactly? Right? Well that’s the catch. No one’s. Like I said, we’re fucked. Belize anyone? Italy? See ya there soon. Ciao.

Fracking Means We’re Fucked

         It’s well past midnight. But I can’t sleep. I heard about Josh Fox’s documentary on hydraulic fracturing, better known as fracking, from Bill Maher. (Say what one will about the ever vigilant pornography loving, womanizing, pot smoking, religion hating, ultra-liberal, potty-mouthed late night talk show host, but the man is smart, funny and one of only a handful of people in the American entertainment industry intelligent enough to not sell out for the money and at the same time stay committed to somehow making important issues topical in our modern highly degraded and degenerate society. (Moyers and Charlie Rose notwithstanding obviously, but one doesn’t often consider them late night talk show hosts.) Leno, Fallon, Kimmel, even Letterman unfortunately, only add to the collective garbage that spews forth into America’s polluted consciousness with their hyper focus on meaningless celebrity, inane pranks, and the usual irrelevant non-news bites of the day.) 
        I’ve been watching the documentary entitled GASLAND based on Maher’s recommendation for the last hour and a half. It is late; the day was long and I am tired. 
        [Editor’s Note: Over the last few weeks I have started to get numerous substantial intuitive hits that it is no longer enough to simply post or share on social networks such as Facebook and Twitter that we all know and love and depend on for the latest and greatest. It came first as an intuitive hit, sometimes I call them voices (though nothing measurably audible is heard), or visions (though it’s nothing akin to hallucinogenic visions); no words that can be translated except very basic generalities… something to the effect of “I wonder if posting to social media rather than the more traditional blog is actually hurting the cause more than helping…. then more as thought-clouds… frequent thought bubbles would appear in my brain about the subject. How many people actually see a post? What if it’s an important post? Something that everyone should be aware of? How many other posts and status updates is that one post competing with? And worst of all, hashtags and all, it’s still damn hard to FIND information on social media without a lot of work, and impossible to bookmark or save it. 
        So sure putting something up on Facebook or Twitter or Tumblr gets it out there “fast” and it sure is easy for us… but how many people does it actually reach? Even when you have a fanbase in the tens of thousands or millions even…? Furthermore, once a post is a few days old, it tends to hit the proverbial bottom of the barrel, seems no longer relevant; hell, it’s no longer even visible to most people except for the real deep diggers or bottom dwellers. But how many of us are like that these days in this age of too much information…? No, posting to social media may have temporarily seemed like the quick fix we all wanted so we wouldn’t have to keep posting to our blogs with all the upkeep cost and maintenance necessary to keep them, but it just isn’t going to work in the long run for committed lifetime information providers or artists or content creators. 
        So we’re back to blogging now, pretty much everything minus only the most mundane items, with auto-feeds going into Facebook, Twitter and Tumblr to alert non-subscribers. Hell, this should be a blog post on its own. But fuck it, if you’re reading this, now you know. Heed it. It’s only getting worse. If your message is important, get it back into a more permanent blog or web-based presence outside of social media which is just too damned overloaded at this late point in the game.] End of Editor’s Note
        In 2005 Bush/Cheney passed their Energy Act, a law that allows oil and natural gas companies (using Haliburton technology, Cheney being the former CEO) drilling for oil and natural gas in the US to be exempt from all the previous laws that protected our air, water, environment and even our drinking water. This was illegal for thirty years prior to their passing of this ludicrous and criminal law. It made anyone drilling for oil or natural gas in America to NOT have to be bound by or abide by the Clean Drinking Water Act, the Natural Water act and the Clean Air act. In other words, they can do whatever they want to the air or water in the US when fracking or drilling and not be regulated, or fined, or even scientifically researched. “WTF???” you might ask. Yeah, me too. When I first heard it I thought maybe I was having a flashback and kept rubbing my eyes… surely I misheard that. So I rewound and watched and listened again. Nope. Got it right the first time. Feeling irritated. But it only gets worse. 
       There are at least 596 chemicals — the majority of which are poisonous to air, water, humans, and the environment — that are used in #fracking fluid that is pumped underground in over 450,000 wells in 30 states across the United States currently. This is happening NOW. #Mindblowing. Colorado, Texas, Kansas, Wyoming, Pennsylvania, Louisiana, on and on. And it’s only getting worse. This documentary was made in 2010. God only knows how much worse it’s gotten since this was made. One of the most devastating aspects of the whole situation is that one of Dick Cheney’s many milestone achievements while he was in the White House, along with spying on Americans, torture, targeted assassinations, and mass killings in the Middle East, was convincing the powers that be to allow oil and natural gas drilling on PUBLIC LANDS. All those millions of acres that Teddy Roosevelt preserved in the United States to save for generations to come — land that belongs to every legal U.S. citizen including you and — are now being devastated by fracking. 
         I don’t want to go into a lot of the details here. That’s one of the benefits of this new age. There’s no need. Anyone can just run a search on it and learn as much as they want to right in the moment. Suffice it to say though: GO FIND A WAY TO WATCH THE FILM CALLED GASLAND. Do it today. Make your whole family watch it. That spouse of yours, the one who’s all “I’m not into that kind of stuff” — male or female, make them watch it too. Force them if you have to. It’s that important.  This guy who made it Josh Fox does an excellent job of explaining the whole paradigm and process in a relatively easy to understand manner. Better than most online reference sources.
        The truth is that this isn’t even a debatable issue anymore. It’s not something that needs more science or research or exploration as some natural gas proponents suggest. It’s more like a freaking disaster that’s already happened. Even in large cities like Dallas / Ft. Worth — one of the worst places hit by it, some parts now deserted, people all sick and dying with no more healthy ground water left. It’s beyond discussing or debating. It’s already a public health and environmental disaster. I’m more than irritated. I’m sad but more than sad. I’m angry but more than angry. Can’t really describe what I’m feeling yet. Overwhelmed maybe. Over it. Like “it’s time to seriously consider where we are going to move now and start planning on when” over it. America is fucked if this continues. 
        For the record Vermont has already passed a law banning fracking entirely in their state. Having used to live in Vermont part time for a number of years during the Cleopatra Ecstasy years, the people of this state never cease to amaze and impress me; for a variety of admirable reasons, this being just one of them.
        You’ll have to see the film for yourself and then start studying it. Study the numbers up above. Consider that all this natural shale that is under half the United States that they are drilling into or want to drill into is surrounded by and sits underneath millions of miles of natural lakes and rivers and streams. We are talking about doing something here that cannot be undone. A catastrophe so mammoth that we may destroy half or more of one of the most beautiful countries on planet earth. And worse than that we may potentially destroy the nation’s natural water supply. 
        Basically the best way to look at it is this: for those who live in any of these states where fracking is already taking place, they’re screwed. They’ll get sick and the survivors will soon realize that they have to move. Big cities will get bigger. Smaller cities will turn into big cities. And that’s really just the beginning. There is no governmental oversight on any of this because of how the White House at that time made it all exempt from any kind of oversight; so as one of the higher-ups at the EPA said “We need to be investigating this and we know it. But we need to be directed to investigate it first. And so far we have not been directed to investigate it. No matter how many nightmare stories we hear of people getting sick or being able to light their tap water on fire etc… We are presently being told that it is out of our jurisdiction.” 
         Funny. So if protecting the public health, clean air, drinking water, and the environment that is being poisoned all over the United States is out of the jurisdiction of the EPA, then who’s jurisdiction is it in exactly? Right? Well that’s the catch. No one’s. Like I said, we’re fucked. Belize anyone? Italy? See ya there soon. Ciao.  
        ADDENDUM: One note to be fair: this incredibly large amount of natural gas that we’ve discovered beneath the earth’s surface IS a financial goldmine, not much different than digging for oil and finding a gusher. We human beings are running out of oil faster than we can develop inexpensive more environmentally safer alternatives. [Unless one believes the ongoing underground conspiracy-talk about free-energy machines that allegedly already exist but are being strangled out of the mainstream knowledge bank by Big Oil companies. This could very well be the truth. But I personally have not seen enough to feel one way or the other. So running out of oil or other fossil fuels before we are able to create sustainable alternatives is a potent reality-based concern.
        This new found treasure trove of natural gas could also very well decrease America’s dependence on foreign oil. Certainly one of the most heinous aspects of the United States government now and over the last sixty years is it’s foreign policy, which seems largely dictated by this greedy blood-lust for oil. Especially disturbing is the dubious relationship the U.S. has with one of the wickedest fascist nations on earth, Arabia (referring to this poor country of enslaved non-citizens as “‘Saudi’ Arabia” only further buys into and promotes the humanitarian hot mess the United States and the Saudi family have set up there). Not to mention Iran, Iraq, Africa, etc. etc. Anything that can be done to ween the United States off of foreign oil and thus these kind of destructive activities is a good thing. So discovering and drilling for natural gas on American soil does appear tempting on several fronts. 
        But two deeper points need to be addressed or at least mentioned. One is that regardless of how much natural gas or even oil that the United States discovers in its own backyard, one is still left with a sneaking suspicion that this will still not preclude nor prevent them from sucking every last bit of oil out of every other country on earth simultaneously. This is common knowledge to anyone who works in Big Oil or government. Energy is king on planet earth and for better or worse the United States is its kingdom and Revolutionary Guard. Truth be told we have only begun to scratch the surface of how much worse it’s going to be over the next fifty years in regards to war and humanitarian crises because of our collective need for oil. God curse anyone unlucky enough to discover oil in their country. Best to just commit mass suicide before the United States or China find out about it. Point being that all this natural gas drilling in the U.S. is not necessarily going to make the United States suddenly draw down on its greedy quest to dominate the oil of the world.
        Now with this said, (like many) I do recognize humanity’s bigger picture evolution toward enlightenment. So regardless of how bad and evil the world seems today, it is a much safer, kinder, more humane and just place than it was one-hundred years ago for example. There does seem to be more focus on human rights and justice for all now than there’s ever been. I do not believe that the people of the world will ever be able to stop the United States from continuing it’s gross misconduct or murderous ways any time soon, but we can perhaps slow it down if enough people wake up and join the cause.  
        [Traditionally the only way a major world empire has ever stepped down from it’s position of power is through an invasion by another country who has grown more powerful. The hope is that this does not occur in our lifetime of course. Practically and selfishly speaking, because oil is THE primary driving force of all nations at this moment in history, it is imperative for all American citizens that the United States government continue to maintain its global dominance around the world, especially in regards to the control of the world’s oil supply and military might. There isn’t a thing in the world that would stop China or Russia for example from invading and taking control of the United States if they believed they had the military might or the money to do so. Controlling the majority of the world’s oil supply is that defining deciding factor. So even if “green energy” became readily available to the U.S. tomorrow, there is still our safety and welfare and the preservation of our beloved American life to consider in regards to how other nations might behave if given the opportunity.]
        Finding a way to decrease dependence on foreign oil by tapping into domestic natural gas preserves will certainly help this cause. People of all shapes and sizes need to recognize that banning natural gas exploration and harvesting entirely is not the best solution. What we need do instead is to stop it temporarily and conduct more research on the process itself until we can hone and refine it to be a cleaner safer process that does not kill people or destroy the environment. This may seem too capitalist a viewpoint for most, especially members of a figurative Transcendence Army, but it’s a much more realistic and practical strategy based on the current facts of life and the reality of today’s world than to run around shouting and petitioning that fracking should be stopped forever and made illegal. This simply isn’t going to happen. Who knows what kind of progress we can make collectively if we just slow things down a little and pump some good old fashioned American ingenuity and scientific research into all these natural gas wells.


Fuck For Nature

An interesting idea to say the least, the Norwegian environmental activist group Fuck FOr Forest is a non-profit that asks other activists to send in photos and videos of themselves in the buff or having sex so they can post it to their website and then nature lovers can pay a small membership fee to view the material. All the proceeds go towards protecting the forests. They are currently working on buying up land to protect in Ecuador and Costa Rica acres at a time. I love the idea. Bold. Fun. Creative. Downright jolly. Check it out here: www.fuckforforest.com

More hours spent viewing and time-logging footage for the show

More hours spent viewing and time-logging footage for the show. Endless and overwhelming task but getting through it. a few hours spent talking to Lil Sis and boo boo. About how hard it is to feel centered and grounded in New York. so hard to feel comfort and secure and nurtured here. because the energy is so high all time. hard to get together with friends. Everyone so caught up in their quest to make their dream a reality. Everyone always working so hard and striving so hard you can live five blocks from someone and not see them for a month. Surrounded by people and still be very much alone most of the time. I had always heard this about New York but never knew it really till I moved here. but yes it is true. a week flies by so fast it feels like a day or two because you are working so hard and such long hours.

Fishy says:
holy cow! laurence and i are speaking about you right now!!! how weird
Rosie  says:
!!!
Rosie  says:
hey
Fishy says:
i jsut asked him where the heck is ro?
Fishy says:
standby i will copy and paste some good news for you so i dont have to retype
Fishy says:
your brother is in the middle of preaching jesus to me right now. as always.  standby…
Fishy says:
Fishy says:
i finally found a home-church here in manhattan after a nine month search.
Laurence-  says:
wow, and what does that exactly mean?
Rosie says:
great!!!!! im so pleased for u! so hows the serach going….like spiritually?
Fishy says:
its ok. i feel a strong god presence all the time now. he led me to go into this church one day when i was walking by and i was filled with the most spiritually fulfilling feeling of euphoria i had ever felt before
Rosie  says:
so you are feeling closer to the truth!!   that’s great!
Fishy says:
Well perhaps. or just blind hypnosis… religion is hypnosis… haha… but perhaps its ok
Fishy says:
of euphoria i had ever felt before. a sens of peace and joy and love and comfort and feeling that he is there for us and with us all the time. so i got the message and went back to the church that sunday
Rosie  says:
what ahhpend next
Rosie  says:
happend
Fishy says:
good stuff.
Rosie  says:
elaborate
Fishy says:
i went back to the church and felt immediately at home after going to different churches ever sunday for about nine months i knew i was home. couldnt explain it. felt like home. felt like old times. god spoke to me sort of like that and all of a sudden i felt this surge of him being very close to me and very close to this church.
Fishy says:
as if its a special place….
Rosie  says:
cool
Rosie  says:
what kind of church was it?
Fishy says:
christ church, united methodist
Rosie  says:
ok…so do you think that the God they worship is true?
Rosie  says:
based on the experience you had?
Fishy says:
the god? yes i guess. i know that i feel god, gods love, presence in our lives…
Fishy says:
i feel that we are all feeling someting akin to godness who are at that church…
Rosie  says:
that is wonderful
Rosie  says:
so…do you believe in the concept of salvation?
Fishy says:
i grew up in the church and went to christian schools so the community aspect is very importnat to me
Fishy says:
the spiritual community aspect of being with like minded people who walk the walk is importnat to me
Fishy says:
im jsut not sure about the details of the dogma…
Fishy says:
i do not beleive that humanity needs salvation from outside of itself…
Fishy says:
i beleive we can supply our own salvation.
Fishy says:
i know this to be true becasue it was me who supplied my own salvation in ’95 and onward… through discvoering the avatar tools and other tools that we can use to free ourselves of guilt and pain and regret and resentment and all that… it didnt come from outside of me. it came from me forgiving myself…. and then voila! i was happy and refreshed and filled with joy again
Fishy says:
i am sure god has something to do with it. i am sure of it. i pray to him eveyday and always have.
Rosie  says:
you know what Jesus taught about salvation right?
Fishy says:
tell me in your words
Rosie  says:
we cannot save our selves.  god requires complete purity/holiness from us and we cannot achieve that our selves.  jesus died for us so that we cam be completely forgiven and saved from our own sin
Rosie  says:
we just need to trust in him, surrender our sins to him (aknowledging we cannot save our selves and need him and his sacrifice).
Fishy says:
i did this many times when i was a teenager and became so to speak born again. but im jsut not there anymore in my heart or mind. but i am sure god understands… to be perfectly honest, i beleive that god if we dare utter the word cares alot more about who we are and how we are and how we act than he does about what we say we beleive or not.
Fishy says:
walk the walk. talking the talk is pretty insignificant. this is my beleif.
Rosie  says:
i get what you mean
Rosie  says:
but it says in the bible that
Rosie  says:
it is through Faith we are saved
Rosie  says:
not by works
Rosie  says:
lest any man should boast
Rosie  says:
(Romans)
Fishy says:
when god speaks to me i listen. when he asks me to do something i do it. i listen.
Fishy says:
remember, that im not such a holy book beleiver.
Fishy says:
its nothing against the christian bible or the koran or any of them. i really dont beleive in any of them… not the bagavad gita or the upanishads or the koran or or the torah or any of them… i do not beleive that man can know god well enough to write his words or ideas down.
Fishy says:
this is my own personal beleif. god is in our hearts perhaps and can come through in our actions and how we appear to the world but not through written words that try to represent what god is thinking or saying.
Rosie  says:
but if god is Jesus, then much of the new testement is just a history account about an encounter with god on earth
Fishy says:
fascinating ideas in the above sentence rosie…
Fishy says:
and one can go on forever pondering these ideas… unfortunaly we will never know. humankind will prob never know…
Fishy says:
for 2000 years we have pondered those ideas and millions of people have been killed because of them. everyone fighting over things like this.
Fishy says:
its best for us to move beyond all that and to jsut live by a human code of love and peace and morality and ethics and respect…
Rosie  says:
that’s well and good in principle
Rosie  says:
but try it
Rosie  says:
it’s impossible
Rosie  says:
if we really could live by a human code of love and peace and morality and ethics and respect…
Fishy says:
i find it easy. especially if i pray everyday.
Rosie  says:
we would not need god to save us
Fishy says:
i pray to god to help me be true to my heart of hearts. i think holy books — no matter which religion they are from — only confuse humans.
Fishy says:
osama bin laden and george w bush are two great examples of religious people confused by holy books….
Rosie  says:
yeah…but if the Bible is true…it changes everything
Rosie  says:
if it is just a false religious book then of course you are right
Rosie  says:
but if it is tru
Rosie  says:
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Fishy says:
well every religion could say that. and they do. so who are we humans supposed to beleive?
Rosie  says:
then it changes our definition of truth
Rosie  says:
exactly
Rosie  says:
only God can show us
Fishy says:
that isnt even fair to think about…. really. its exclusionary to humanity.
Rosie  says:
and he will
Fishy says:
well i hope he does eventually show us because im sick of reading the history of humankind killing each other over these very silly arguments…
Fishy says:
its nice that we created a god concept. its an awesome idea. now lets live up to it. lets make god proud.
Rosie  says:
of course
Rosie  says:
interesting
Fishy says:
yes….
Rosie  says:
but what if the only way we can make him proud is to surrender to him and let him cleanse and save us
Fishy says:
thought youd like that chickie
Fishy says:
i know….
Fishy says:
jsut gonna have to wait till god comes down and tells us what the hell is going on!
Fishy says:
cause none of us know…
Fishy says:
until then we still have music and movies and dancing and lovemaking and romance and all that….
Rosie  says:
well he came once and the next time it comes it will be too late
Fishy says:
I don’t agree
Rosie  says:
then it says Every Knee Shall Bow, Every Tounge Confess that Jesus Chrict is Lord
Fishy says:
do you think maybe that i am the second coming?
Fishy says:
i look like jesus….
Fishy says:
do you remember when i was sporting that beard?
Fishy says:
hahahaha!!!
Rosie  says:
well…i think you can answer that for your self my dear Fishy!!
Rosie  says:
but you are cool!!!
Fishy says:
hahahah
Fishy says:
that would be funny if i were the messiah and didnt know it…
Fishy says:
at least you could get into clubs for free…
Rosie  says:
well the messiah will and does no it
Rosie  says:
well u can do that anyway already because you are such a rock star
Fishy says:
lol
Rosie  says:
gotta go
Rosie  says:
have an exam tommorow
Rosie  says:
have not revised
Fishy says:
kick butt!
Rosie  says:
thanks
Rosie  says:
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I am glad to speak to my friends and family about these things. I am glad that I have friends and family who are still so religious. It’s a good discourse where we all can learn a little. Not into the ritual of religion so much myself. Believing now that God is actually more of an extension of us… or we an extension of him. that one day we will realize the secret that has been there all along for us to discover. That that which we seek is actually just a larger extension of ourselves. So even the rituals to me seem insignificant and meaningless in the bigger picture. It is our actions that are what’s important. the rituals change and shift according to what time in our history it is and what country we are living in. But our actions are timeless. They are beyond national boundaries.

In the “white house sucks ass department” from our friends at CNN:
WASHINGTON (Reuters) — A White House official, who previously worked for the American Petroleum Institute, has repeatedly edited government climate reports in a way that downplays links between greenhouse gas emissions and global warming, The New York Times reported Wednesday.
Philip Cooney, chief of staff for the White House Council on Environmental Quality, made changes to descriptions of climate research that had already been approved by government scientists and their supervisors, the newspaper said, citing internal documents.
The White House declined comment on the report.
Well of course they did.

Current spin: husseine alizadeh, the art of improvisation. Persian classical music played on the dumbek and the taar. Beautiful. really effing beautiful.

I’m eating these jelly bellys right now

I’m eating these jelly bellys right now. omg, these are so good. did you know they add caffeine to these to force you to just keep eating and eating them? its true. once you start, you can’t stop. They do this shit to kids, with no warning. Load candy and soda up with caffeine so they get super into it and can’t stop. It’s right there on the box. Its one thing to do that to us once we’re old and too stupid to know any better, but doing that to kids. Heinous. There is that chemical they add to most over the counter cereals (the ones you buy in “mainstream” grocery stores, not in health food stores) that creates a feeling of not being full in the person who is eating it; the chemical’s sole purpose is to offset the appestat in the human body that tells the body when it feels full so the person eating the cereal keeps eating more even though they are full, but they never feel full. Ever notice that with store bought cereals? This is true. You can look it up. its totally allowed.

What a strange society America has created itself as. kind of this anything goes as long as it makes you money kind of thing. even when we know the dangers, its as if we have this agreement that we’re just going to overlook this stuff because we know our whole society is dependent on being this way. everyone has been talking about the weather this year. how spring hasn’t really arrived yet. its either really hot one day or really cold the next day. things have been kind of effed up ever since that storm ‘el nino.’ Environmentalists will tell us how bad the eco-system is right now because of all the damage we have done to the environment in the last fifty years or so but our politicians, especially the republican side, will just keep on claiming that we have nothing to worry about and that the environmentalists and eco-scientists are just being pansies. Like everyone, I don’t know who to believe, but I’ll tell ya, it’s a few weeks away from summer here, and we haven’t even had a spring yet. its still in the fifties and we’re all wearing our winter coats most of the week. so go figure.

But yes, fuck the environment as long as we have jelly bellys. They are godlike.

Today I spoke with Vicki D, my first major girlfriend from high school, freshman year. we used to spend hours on various beds and couches around town making out and giving each other hickis. Truly memorable times. it was very nice to reconnect to someone who was once so important to you way back when. Almost bitter-sweet. felt like yesterday. which of course it was since I’m only twenty-five now… lol, but it had this ‘bitter-sweet standing in the rain middle section of a John Hughes movie’ feeling about it… kind of a ‘what if’ feeling. Which I guess is to be expected. Good stuff.

Yesterday I had my first meeting with my new stylist coach. We’ll call him JB. A true image consultant to the stars. Worked with Beyonce and will smith and usher, etc etc. and his whole thing is getting you to really discover or create who you really are at your essence and then go all out with that, put it out there for all the world to see. So you don’t dilute your image. So you don’t disappear amongst all the flash and hype that is your competition. It was challenging. But I must say I liked it. who is Fishy? hhhmmm.

We did this exercise where he asked me who my rockstars were. And then I had to tell him why I liked those people. while I free-associated he jotted things down in this notebook. I mentioned Tony Robbins, oprah winfrey, David Byrne, bob Dylan, bono, Caetano, Rufus, John Lennon, Eddie izzard… and then he hands me this piece of paper and tells me its my mantra for the week. ‘look at this list often and meditate on how you are being and how you fit into these words, how they fit in with who you are. This is who you are, who you want to be…’ and it’s this list of the words I used to describe the people that I look up to as my heroes: Superhuman, artist’s artist, big hearted, change the world, achiever, breaking boundaries, revolutionary, stylish, sexy, mysterious, funny, irreverent, great voice… like that. these were just words I used to describe the people that I dig. Cool huh? Tells me, ‘this is what we’re going to be going after for you. This is you. This is who you want to be.’ Good stuff. look forward to more.

Why does everyone pronounce Bret favre “farv?” I mean why? why not just pronounce it correctly? And what about everyone pronouncing Worchester “worster?” I mean, lets face it, this shit has been going on for a long time. all of us who are reading this are too young to remember the actual starting point for these things. we just woke up one day and were confronted with the realization that everyone seemed to pronounce favre “farv” and Worchester “worster” and Houston “huseton.” We knew it didn’t make any sense. Why were they doing that? We didn’t know, but we didn’t want to come off stupid either so we just played right along and started pronouncing everything wrong right along with everyone else. But I think there’s some danger in that.

I think from this point forward if you hear people pronouncing something incorrectly, no matter how many people do it in the world, number one, we should correct them, and number two make it a real point to pronounce it correctly. Just go for it. if someone tells you they’re from huseton, tell them they’re mistaken, that they’re from Houston. If someone hands you something and says ‘wa-la’ to you, tell them the word begins with a ‘v.’ It’s ‘voila.’

Man these jelly bellys are fucking driving me crazy. I can’t stop eating them. I’m going to blow up.

I go out to lunch with JerseyGirl today.

I go out to lunch with JerseyGirl today. we have known each for over ten years now, having met at our first Avatar masters course back then and continue to see each other at courses and various social events. She lives close by so we hang now and then. I tell her how we filmed all day on Saturday and we viewed the footage on Sunday and the audio was all effed up so now we have to re-film on Tuesday. How my show-finale speech was all about how we, the people, are losing the good fight and how the giant corporations that rule the earth are winning, how they have always won, how they will always win, and hey at least we have good music and film, and that’s all about all we have. the best that we can hope for is that it doesn’t get any worse, but even that seems like a pipe dream. The people with money, and I mean BIG money, are going to continue to sell out the rest of the people regardless of what that means in the long haul. I mean, after all, George bush and his big goal now of reforming social security, does that have anything to do with doing something right for the people? for his neighbors? I mean why is he so adamant about this? why isn’t he tackling more important issues like health care or the environment or credit card or banking reformation to really help the American people? instead he is spending much of his time now trying to convince the public that the government should overhaul social security to the tune of billions of dollars.. and who is going to get these billions of dollars? You guessed it, large corporations. The same corporations that put him in the seat of president. So now that he is president he needs to give them this on a silver platter, just as he gave them the country of Iraq. This has nothing to do with helping the American people, and most people know it, the media knows it, congress knows it, everyone knows it, but we pretend that we don’t because that’s the way it works. the emperor has no clothes and everyone acts like they don’t notice because that is way it has always worked. That’s our job as a people. So no, chances are we will not see reform of political campaign financing, or health care, or banking or unemployment fixes, or education, or protection of the environment, because even though that’s what we need as a people, there is no money in that for the big powers that be that run the world and got him into power. that’s just the way it is for America now.

On the subject of the environment. Well it looks like we lost that fight and we will contnue to lose that fight. the environment is a lost cause as long as gw sits in power. no matter how many people try to change it. we can raise ten billion dollars to save the environment and with one phone call to or from one president of one company to the president of the United States, all of that can be reversed and destroyed in an hour. that’s life.

Maybe there’s hope, who knows. but for now, at this point, after six months of interviews and really studying, this is where I’m at with it. it appears to me that we are losing, that the people of the world are losing, and that there’s nothing we can really do about it.

So I share this with JerseyGirl over lunch and tell her that this is the conclusion that I share with people in the TV show that I have been filming. and she is aghast. She is horrified. ‘but you are an Avatar. How could you do this? how could you even think these thoughts? You know that whatever you put your attention on you help manifest… you know this. I am shocked Fishy.’ ‘I know JerseyGirl. I knew you would feel like this. But I’m afraid this is really how I feel right now. this is how I see it. the whole idea of this show is for me to be honest with what I’m feeling. The truth is that the poor and middle classes and even the moderately rich will always lose, and the super rich will always rule, even when they think they are winning and really losing, they will still get their way because that’s just the way the world works. the only way change is created is by violent acts of revolution.’ ‘Fishy you do not mean this. tell me you are kidding right now. this is ridiculous.’ ‘I know how you feel. I’m with you Jers, I’m with you, you know my heart, we became masters together, so you know that I’m a lover not a fighter, but I gotta tell you, I have to call as I see it, and this is what I’m seeing.’ ‘well don’t you see that the audio being messed up and now you guys having to re-shoot is a sign from the universe that you need to change your conclusion a little… do you see that?’ she smiles at me this really big joyful appreciative smile that she is famous for.’ ‘yeah I see that. I will change it a bit. I am going to try to find a way to make it a little more positive… but I’ll tell you, I’m not even giving you the whole picture. I’ve been studying this stuff a lot and I’m really starting to believe that the only way we’re ever going to change things for the better for us is through violent acts of rebellion and revolution. I didn’t say that on tape but that’s what I’m feeling now.’ ‘Fishy I can’t even believe you are saying this. don’t you dare. As an Avatar, don’t you dare. Do you believe that we are creating an EPC? An enlightened planetary civilization?’ ‘I believe that we are trying. But I don’t think we are getting anywhere.’

We finish lunch and as we walk to the car we pass by this store called love saves the day. she forces me to go in and tells me that this is a sign from the universe. She buys me a little beanie baby angel teddy bear and I buy her a little love teddy bear. I tell her I will use the tools to discreate these ideas that I have. that I will begin to work on this to stop thinking this way. so I’m writing about it. trying to sort it out. how I got to this place, I don’t know. its not like me. but I am tired of being a blind idealist with no sense of what’s really going on. I am tired of watching all of my environmental and social and political activist friends work so hard and get no where. The truth is we all marched in protest against this war in Iraq all over the world and we got nowhere. That’s the truth. over a hundred thousand Iraqis murdered and we fought the good fight but the giant corporations of the world won. The Iraqis are dead and that’s that. how idealistic can you be after witnessing that?

Current spin: Moby, his new one, Hotel. I love Moby. How can you not.

There is meaning to our lives

Still finding myself obsessed with a quiet secret subtle and almost constant gnawing at my insides about the unbearable sadness of how impermanent everything is. It creeps up on me throughout the day and I have to fight back the feeling of hopelessness when I start to think about how temporary everything in our lives is. Our lifetimes are short here. Our day to day experiences are memories before we even have the chance of taking each of them in. one minute we are having a good time and in the next moment it is a new day and we barely remember the events of the day before. It is a horrible and haunting understanding that sits in the back of my mind at all times.

I remind myself that it is up to me to find meaning while I am here. I try to live my life to its fullest and even then I cannot shake the deep underlying knowing that they are all just moments lived and then soon forgotten. Where is the meaning in that? Where is there meaning in anything if it is all just going to become a memory, never to exist again? Or worse even, soon not even a memory, because we tend to forget things so easily. I cannot shake the horror of it. why live at all? that’s what always comes up for me. Why are we living in the first place if each day is just going to drift on into the non-existent past?

There is absolutely no way to retrieve the past. Each day of our lives is lost to the next, and if that weren’t horrible enough, that day is also lost to the one that follows it. we are just floating inside of this thing called life. just riding in it like passengers in a stranger’s car; with very little control and even less control of how we process it or how much of it we are able to remember.

Now this does remind me of a few things. Beav’s wife and sister Lollie, two of the most mainstream good old American girls you’d ever want to meet have been scrapbooking all their lives. So they can pull out a book from just about any time in their lives and show you pictures of their former selves and their friends and family members. This is a nice attempt at salvaging our ever fleeting lives and memories. But a futile exercise. If there is ever a fire in their home or a flood or a war or any other disaster their scrapbooks will be destroyed in a heartbeat.

And worse even, in time the scrapbooks will be close to meaningless anyway. As they pass on and their children get older and then their children become older these scrapbooks will become less and less useful or important or meaningful. eventually they will be forgotten or tossed into a box or thrown away. and their lives, the lives of my two beautiful sisters in law will be entirely forgotten, like myself and my brother Beav and my mom and everyone else I know now. that’s just life. and it suffers me greatly.

I have found myself less and less interested in day to day conversations because I have come to understand how utterly pointless they are. In less than a few hours they will be forgotten. When the family gathers around the table to bs and have fun and hang out and talk and all that, I find myself obsessing on how futile and pointless it is to be there talking shit and hanging out. after all, in a few years someone will get divorced and we won’t be hanging out anymore, or someone else will die or even if that doesn’t happen, eventually we all will be dead and won’t even be a memory to anyone at all. so instead I sit and stare at everyone laughing and listen to their ultimately meaningless diatribes and wonder why we all even bother to talk to each other at all.

I remember rummaging through some boxes at the goodwill and finding these boxes of all these families belongings. Baby clothes and framed pictures of people and photo albums and trinkets. And I felt so devastated by the experience. I sat there staring at the photo albums wondering who these people were and how all of their personal belongings ended up at a goodwill store. Were they all dead now? was there a divorce and one of the parents gave away all their stuff? were the people in the framed pictures still alive? Did they know that their stuff was being rummaged through by strangers everyday and was for sale? Where are these poor souls now who framed these meaningless photographs?

I have begun to feel the same way about learning. I think about how much information and knowledge I don’t have in my brain compared to how much I have studied through the years. I would guess that I have retained about one/one-hundredth of the amount of information that I have put into my brain in the last twenty years. call it getting older or whatever, but you just reach this point where you realize that you really have studied an enormous amount. About a whole host of subjects, everything from Egyptology to physics to art history to the great religions to philosophy to literature to sail boating, and you still can’t remember most of it. the information goes in, and you then it seems to go back out. I will swear to God right now, (o.k. I know that may not hold much water, since I have already professed to not really believing in that kind of God anyway, the kind of God who would care about that type of thing,) but still, I will swear to God that I have read at least five books over the years on say Beethoven for instance, and Chopin, and Bach, and Mozart, and I wouldn’t be able to answer five questions correctly about the lives of any of these men, nor their famous works. so why fucking read and study and learn anything at all?

Lately I have been starting to realize that just about the only thing that does seem to matter is making enough money to live a great lifestyle, and finding peace inside of yourself. That’s about all I can make out of any of this so far. I am starting to think that all of my crazy and insane and voracious reading has been kind of worthless. I mean, you can’t take any of this knowledge to the grave with you. I don’t think we can take anything to the grave with us. so what is all this learning about then? why know anything about anything? Why not just work hard to make money? Just work hard to make enough money to just stay stoned or drunk all the time and be pampered like a king and then die when it’s your time to die. I think that might make a bit more sense than all of this crazy reading and learning that I have been obsessed with since I can remember. Where does it really get us in the long run or even the short run? I guess it just comes down to the moment. if you’re happy in the moment then that’s all that matters.

Next day:
These horrific realizations I have written about above are made even more agonizing and unbearable by certain encounters with the inane and mundane of living in mainstream America (unless of course you are a mainstream American; then life here may entertain and console rather than depress and suffer you. I have a profound admiration for these people, for their faith, for their simple life, for their innocence.) Yesterday at the hotel I flipped through a TV Guide that they had in our room while I was using the bathroom. On the back of the cover was this rather offensive looking picture of a dolled-up air-brushed pseudo-anchorman trying his best to look smart and cool, kind of like he secretly thinks he is a movie star rather than a newsman; the headline next to his cheesy half-grin read “THIS NEW YEARS EVE ANDERSON COOPER LIVE FROM TIMES SQUARE. LIVE COVERAGE BEGINS AT 11:00 PM.” As if that were news. New years eve at times square where thousands of people stand in the freezing cold for hours just to watch some man-made ball of lights drop from the top of a building for a few seconds is now news to this supposed news channel. And worse yet, this guy has two last names as his whole name. This is just a totally unlikable situation.

The idea alone is nauseating enough if you are someone who likes a little more meaning and authenticity to your holidays, but hey this is America and it’s a free country and we should be allowed to do whatever we want to. that’s a groovy thing. But to send one of your top anchormen out there to report on it like its news…. my fucking God… dig what I’m saying here.

I just recently learned that a lot of our food now in America is being sprayed/dosed/shot with a few dozen poisonous radioactive chemicals in a process they call “irradiation” and that a lot of other food in American grocery stores is being genetically altered for various reasons – they call the process GM food, genetically modified. I had heard about both of these processes years ago but I didn’t know that we actually started doing it. did you? here’s the fucking clincher: the food that is sprayed with radiation AND the food that is being genetically modified is NOT LABELED for us. This isn’t just happening to fruits and vegetables and meats. Its happening to all foods in the grocery stores all over America. In boxes and cans and frozen foods and no one knows it because they don’t have to label the foods.

Now I trust that most people who are crazy and cool and smart enough to read me know about this shit already but in a nutshell this means that they can take genes from a chicken and mix them in with the genes of a tomato if they think it may make the tomato bigger or last longer and then when someone goes to eat a tomato, even if they are a vegetarian, they are now eating some genetic material from a chicken. Its fucking insane and heinous and evil and you cannot get away from it no matter what here in America. Only if you buy all organic food. That’s they only way to avoid it… this is fucking horrible.

And if that weren’t bad enough, that same tomato may have also been sprayed with radiation! And we the people who are buying the food – that means you and me – don’t know about it. in America there are no laws or guidelines that say that the manufacturers of food nor the grocery stores that sell us our food have to label the food that has been treated in these scary dangerous poisonous manners. the implications to how badly this could affect our health are enormous but no one says a fucking word and the people don’t even know about it. we never voted on it. its just something that our congressmen slipped by us because they actually get paid by the food manufacturers to do so. I’m not making this up and I’m not trying to be an alarmist. This is just how it works in America. They do whatever they want to at the expense of the people in order to get money for their campaigns and then if all hell breaks loose later and people start getting sick and having babies with three legs and all that, then they claim ignorance and say that they didn’t know and chances are they will blame the food makers and the grocery stores and make them pay a shitload of money to the poor families, as if that is going to make them feel any better.

It’s a twisted system we have set up here still in America with our elected officials. Most of them I will add. There are some congressmen who have been vehemently opposed to genetically modified and irradiated food not being labeled, but they have been unsuccessful in trying to help us because the payoffs (they call it LOBBYING in our government, not payoffs, but by all accounts, it is legal bribes they take in order to help themselves while fucking all of us up the ass. this equals “payoffs.”) Now of course in Europe they do have laws that protect them from this kind of insanity and if you’re buying genetically modified oranges or peanuts sprayed with cancer causing radiation you will know it because it will be marked right on the label. I would guess that’s because the Europeans have countries that are much older that ours is. They have already learned their lessons a few hundred times over. They’ve learned their lessons. They know their governments are greedy fuckhead bastards out to get as much as they can for themselves and could care less about serving the people. that’s why we sit in history class here in the states and learn about all of their various revolutions that they’ve had over the centuries.

In Europe they could never get away with allowing an entire population to eat food sprayed with radiation and not even know it. the people would go fucking nuts and storm the government buildings and cut off the fucking heads of their prime ministers or other government officials, as they have done in times past. Here in America we’ve been eating this shit for like five years now I just found out and we haven’t even known about it. And everyone is walking around wondering why diseases like cancer and Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s and diabetes are on the rise in our country even though we are supposedly the most advanced country in the world. everyday on the news we see the puppet heads talk about these new diseases being on the rise in our country and all the new drugs that scientists are coming up with, but no one is talking about all this new shit they are secretly doing to the food behind our backs.

O.k. so what does this have to do with Anderson cooper and CNN spending a few hours in front of thousands of people watching some stupid man-made ball of lights sit on top of a building and trying to pretend that that’s news? well I’m glad you asked. Not that I have to make the connection for you, for I’m sure that I don’t by now, but shouldn’t the news fucks be spending that hour reporting news? like real news? Like reporting on the fact that our government has allowed our food manufactures to start spraying our food with radiation? And shouldn’t they be doing that everyday until a real change is made so we don’t have to eat fucked up food and not even know it? I mean, what the fuck is this idiot doing getting paid to stand in the freezing cold watching a bunch of people get drunk and stare at a ball when he should be on TV telling us about what’s happening to our food? When he should be in a lab interviewing scientists and doctors about the dangers of irradiated food? When he should be at the capital trying to get our congressmen to explain how the fuck they let this shit slide behind our backs and without us even being allowed to vote on it. that’s what he should be reporting on… now that’s news. and its kind of fucking obvious unless you are a fucking moron.

But instead we get three hours of fake news reports on new years eve in New York. As if that is news? as if that is newsworthy? Isn’t there anything else they cold be reporting on? Is there nothing left of our lives than the flashiest and the glitziest? Is there nothing left to our lives than the event or the product that pays the most for advertising time? Being in the business you learn over the years what makes news. you learn that what we see in the media is not necessarily the most newsworthy but the most paid for. it is called publicity. The entities that often make the news are called publicists. [for the record, our band has a publicist by the way. we just can’t pay the big dollars for the big publicists yet so that is why we are not front page news. give me a few hundred thousand dollars and I’ll be the fucking poster boy for genetically modified food. People can watch me degenerate and die right in front of their eyes on live TV from eating too many irradiated avocados and I’ll be a happy camper if they’re paying me enough.]

The products and the companies and the people who are willing and able to pay the most to these publicists acquire the most space and time in the media and therefore the most attention from the masses. that means you and me. the reason we are bombarded and besieged everyday by pictures and irrelevant babble underneath their smarmy photos about Britney and Paris and the Donald is not because they are newsworthy but because they are paying millions of dollars to their publicists every month to be newsworthy. The media doesn’t seem to notice the overwhelming amount of non-news they shove down the throats of the innocents. They are just doing their job. When we open up our msn messenger and read “Is Britney pregnant?” it is not because anyone cares. We didn’t ask to be informed of this. It is because the media is doing their job of being paid to report whatever the publicists tell them to run that day. the public then thinks that they should care. And then in the grocery store or in the line at Starbucks, Britney’s name might come up and someone might say, ‘I heard she is pregnant.’ And someone else might say, ‘oh yeah. I heard that too.’ and that is news. and in the meantime no one even knows her music or owns any of her albums. But they know her face and her name and they think that is newsworthy because the media tells them that it is.

All around us there is real news happening. Each of us throughout our days hears about real news happening right in our own backyards. And yet we see very little of it in the national media. I have always found it fascinating that the likes of a George w bush or any other elected official can get away with all the horrible things they do at the expense of the people they serve and no one knows anything about it. But everyone knows that Justin is dating Cameron. We all hear about the dangers and the threat to personal liberty and freedom that the ‘patriot act’ is to all of us here in America, and yet none of us knows what those dangers are because the media never talks about it. I admit that I don’t even know. I just hear the whisperings here and there. But we all know what ‘bootylicious’ means. And we all know that Paris Hilton started her own jewelry line. and we all know that brad and Jen might be on the rocks. Even I know that. and that is sad. Do I care? Does anyone care? Should we care? Do we have a choice at this point? It certainly isn’t important to anyone except brad and Jen God love them but we hear about it anyway.

Don’t know if I already penned this thought in a prior entry but CNN has started to use the catchphrase ‘the most trusted name in news.’ if they were the most trusted name in news wouldn’t they be using the catchphrase ‘we want to be the most trusted name in news?’  I mean, there’s no way to qualify such a statement is there? so if you do want to be trusted you wouldn’t ever say it would you? I wouldn’t trust anyone who claimed that they could be trusted. Your actions would speak much louder than your self aggrandizing declarations. Same thing with fox news whose catchphrase is ‘fair and balanced.’ Even an alien coming from another planet could catch a few minutes of their non-news and see that there is nothing fair and balanced about it. and just by the nature of them having to declare it is a red flag to anyone except a few gullible middle-state Americans. What gets me is how the hell we ended up in this mess in the first place. how the hell did we allow supposed ‘news’ shows to report the supposed news so one sided and opinionated and self serving that it isn’t even news anymore? When did this tragic betrayal ever start? And why do we continue to allow it?

Reminds me of Michael Jackson proclaiming himself the king of pop. You don’t have to tell the world you are the ‘anything of anything.’ We’ll let you know. Bruce isn’t the boss because he declared himself so. He just is. the purple one isn’t the baddest mofo in show business because he declared it. He just is. Because of his singing and dancing and songwriting and performing. But maybe we’re missing the point. I mean, kings aren’t elected are they? They are self proclaimed. For better or worse. They show up one day and declare I am king. And the people just try to keep going on with their lives. I’ve never liked the idea of kings and I thank God for the day that we started ousting them out of power. I think its high time that we started doing the same thing with our news. we need to take it back. our souls are thirsting for things real and substantial and meaningful. I hear it everyday from everyone around me. and if you are reading this, then chances are you are one of the many who have felt the same thing and probably said it to one of your friends or coworkers.

There is meaning to our lives. There is no doubt about it. regardless of what the media tries to tell us. There is meaning and substance in the world. We can feel it. We experience it everyday. But we need to start demanding that we are told about it. it isn’t going to come from a Barbara Walters special or a fox news flash or from a CNN special report that’s for sure. We are going to have to start looking for it ourselves I’m afraid. Going deeper on our own and sharing what we learn with one another on a grass-roots level. Because the mainstream news is just not doing it here in America anymore. My brother’s wife asked me once why I was so cynical. And I just looked at her with this understanding look on my face. I had noticed in the bathtub the day before that she uses this product to wash her new baby called “babysoft babywash” by Johnson’s. and inside of this bottle of poison are seventeen different manmade chemicals. Preservatives, artificial colors, alcohol and a bunch of other shit I would never put on my own body. chemicals known to be poisonous to the human body. I’m thinking why the fuck isn’t she just using a good homemade Vermont soap? Something pure and natural? Why all these chemicals? And the reason is that she doesn’t know any better. She thinks that because this product is available in her local grocery store and advertised in her favorite women’s magazines that it must be safe. And why shouldn’t she? When the news media is not saying shit about it because they are receiving millions of dollars a year from letting these companies advertise their products. so instead my poor sister in law knows all about the new Jude law movie, but she doesn’t know shit about what to wash her baby with or that she’s feeding her whole family poison food sprayed with radiation. So is there a reason why certain people are cynical? Hell yeah. And the truth be told I’m waiting for a lot more people to become cynical. And angry. And pissed off. And I’m hoping that one day we are going to do something about it.